Hiccuping my way through to the heights I wish to scale, I’m on tenterhooks,
I wonder with every single untrodden step if
I should stop, If I should just let it all be,
I wonder about the million open ended questions I’d have no answer to, if I fail,
Trepidation clouts my brain bringing my faltering steps to a standstill, squirming the guts out of my fragile heart, pushing me back into my shell, undiscovered, unharmed.
But as I walk back, I only see
Epiphanies tranquilizing the pitfalls I’d been through,
The bright blue sky masquerading the clouds that trespassed my way, thrusting upon me the elixir I was seeking,
Propelling me to seize each moment, every last one of them,
Making me brazen enough to take the plunge,
Helping me realise if I don’t, for me, no one else will.