In Your Heart, Forever Remain A Child πŸ’βœ¨

For someone who doesn’t have too many happy memories of life, it doesn’t come as a surprise when I come across as a pessimist. I’m not negative as a person, but I tend to expect in negative – which is to say, my expectations from anything, and everything will always be below zero. I believe this way I’ll experience double the happiness when something good happens, wouldn’t flip out if nothing happens, and not experience a heart failure if something bad happens.

Having said that, I’d like to transcribe those few features I loved in myself as a kid, but have lost them while growing up. I don’t know if I’d ever go back to being the wild kid I was (wild, in my own terms), but to be back there and be the free spirit that was, would be a wish too wistful.

I was this extremely confident, smart, unflinching girl, who wouldn’t give a damn about what people thought of her. I’d just go about, do my thing, show the world what I’m capable of and dance away to popularity. Though I was atrocious at whatever I did, I just wouldn’t care to stop. I was a free spirited girl who wouldn’t be caged. I never cared about what people thought about me. Nobody’s opinion seemed to matter to me, but my heart’s.  But as I grew, I began to think, I began to observe and I began to understand. Everything and everyone’s opinion seemed to matter to me. I began to change myself to someone who people wanted to see. I began to cage my spirit. I began to worry. I began to be bothered about people’s thoughts, responses and reactions.

All I’d want to preserve for eternity, is the free spirit and innocence and genuinity of childhood, and etch and imbibe it in our hearts forever, so it’s not lost into nothingness as we grow.

Love πŸ’

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Author: Annapurani Vaidyanathan

I hoard books for a living. And read them too, when I am not sleeping. I express what I think, so my unheard feelings don't sink. I like to sing when I walk, to keep shades grey, at bay. I speak like a dork, but I don't want to drive anyone away. I write what's real, and nothing fake, so visit my blog whenever you need a break ;)

3 thoughts on “In Your Heart, Forever Remain A Child πŸ’βœ¨”

  1. Never expect lowly! What we expect is what we receive. It does not save us from heartache to expect little. Life definitely has a way of dimming our lights but we must fight through the struggle and shine anyway! I’ve been through some pretty tough stuff myself, especially with verbal abuse from my parents. And like you, I use to condition myself into thinking that expecting nothing would make me content with the little I receive. But then I got out of my Parent’s home and into the real world and realized that if I walk around with that notion, I’ll continue to attract the things and people who think the same and are willing to give me just that. You have to see your value and know that you deserve greatness too. Sometimes the process to that greatness takes awhile, but that doesn’t mean that it’s not possible. 😊

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